More Kittens and time flies!

 

One of the new boy kittens! We have five kittens now. We still have the first two kittens, and now three more which are all in this post.

Here's a video of the little boy kitten today:

OMG, he is so adorable!

Here is the other boy kitten from group 2:

And the short video of him:

And the girl kitten from group 2:

And her short video:

That's group two kittens. The group one kittens are in the link above "two kittens." Group one is the first two kittens (a boy and a girl), and group two is three kittens (a girl and two boys) all pictured above. That's all we can handle at one time in our dedicated little kitten room. They can't intermix with our cats because these are all being sold into homes, and we can't risk them getting cold viruses or whatever they can get from the other cats.

Not to forget any of our other cats! Here's Mocha today:

Anyone remember when we got him as a kitten? He was a little scaredy cat and we had to keep him in that same kitten room for about a month or we would have lost him running and hiding somewhere. Now look, he's a little love bug (5 years later):

So, that's part of life with my sweet cat whisperer husband Randy.

I'm still plugging away on my nutrition and somehow creating a deficit some days. As I told my friend today in a message in the 1P App: 

I'm in the same boat. I only need to lose 10 pounds or so and the deficit is so not fun and so freakin' hard! The other day I baked bread with my fresh buttermilk, and baked cookies, and brought homemade butter and a nice sandwich spread. They all appreciated it but I totally messed up on my eating that day, and then the next day because I was wound up and barely got any sleep.

Fasting is so hard too, but I'm doing it when I can. When I'm successful it feels so good! I really like the light feeling, even though hunger comes with it.

Many days I can handle it well and manage the rest of the day without eating too much. It takes adapting, and once I adapt, it's SO GOOD. But it's getting to the point where I can do it and it mostly feels good and not dreadful. It can't stay dreadful, although there is a dreadful short phase while adapting to it.

I can't be in the kitchen those days doing food prep, and I have to have small healthy meals lined up where I just run in and grab it or heat it up. I have to be busy with other things away from the kitchen and very goal oriented with those projects or reading in the prayer room. It's super hard!

I can't let myself get stressed out or frustrated. I'm certainly frustrated with a few things in my life, especially how my clothes fit and how I look in the few clothes big enough to fit. I'm very disappointed in how I look at the moment. By most of societies standards I'm perfectly fit, but I have different standards for myself. Sometimes we just have to be quiet about it, because many people wouldn't get it.

When I get frustrated with it, I calm myself down and remind myself that I'm fixing it by NOT EATING. When I say not eating, I mean sticking to the small healthy meals that fuel my body just enough while at the same time providing the calorie deficit that is necessary for losing that little bit of body fat. It is not in a weird anorexic way that most of society would disparagingly say. The truth is that a calorie deficit is hard, uncomfortable, and requires a feeling of hunger. It's not fun. That's why most people do not succeed at it. It's why I am having hard time with it right now. I have to accept the fact that it feels uncomfortable and most nights I'll feel very hungry and it's kind of a sad feeling. But the truth is, once I fall asleep and I sleep well, I wake up feeling wonderful and I can handle the hunger feeling all morning. My body feels light, not bloated, and cleansed. It's a good feeling and it works.

I've been super busy working at the Sheriff's office and other projects. It's been cool here and summer never really arrived. We've had clouds and thunderstorms most days this month so far. It's a very strange year with the weather.

I'll try to post some recipes soon.

Much love to everyone, my special unique friends who come here to see how I'm doing and are the small select group who care about what's up with me.

I know others have said they want to post something, and will someday, and that they want me to keep being me... so I will!

Time flies! We must stay ON IT in order to achieve what we want, while still enjoying life and the love of the people around us.

Roberta